Reading from the title of the post... of coz you would know that I actually cried. This is the 2nd time i cried becoz of Area 14. The first time i cried was becoz i was totally stressed up when so many things were not done and being bombarded by many comments and questions during the meeting. Today, was the second time.
There is suppose to be a song standardisation for the campfire now but i didn't go becoz my parents dun allow me to be out so late and somemore it is bound to end very late. I am angry with them when they scolded me and say :" Why everytime your meeting is always so late? Can't it be in the afternoon or morning why always so late?"
"Because everyone is busy in the day with either school or work. Therefore meetings are always after 7pm" I replied, thinking that maybe they could understand the rationale in having meetings after 7pm. But... NO~!
" So becoz they have to study and work so meetings must be late, so if ppl work later than 7pm, u got to meeting at midnight la~!" When I heard this from the mouth of my parents, i knew they dun understand what i am going thru. No point in explaining more, becoz the more i explain, the more scoldings i get out of it.
I wanted to go for the meeting becoz it is part of my responsibility. I am a Cadet Inspector, not only a QTSS Unit CI, but also an Area 14 CI. How can i run away from Area? Isn't that very irresponsible? I feel so much, feel so wanted to do everything i can do to contribute to NPCC, be it area or unit, but it seems that i can't do very much with parents who doesn't put priority the same as i do. They seem to never understand what i am going through, they see me helping the Area and Unit a stupid thing to do, they feel that spending time to work, to study is better than always making myself busy to run here and there to do what they think are stupid things to do. I find that i am doing some shitty job ending up earning and gaining nothing.
Maybe u find it stupid, it is just being unable to attend an area meeting and i kicked a big fuss out of it. But then, this is becoz, my passion for this cca is very deep that even though i passed out as a cadet, a nco, i still make it a point to go thru the Cadet Inspector course and continue to serve this cca. Because it is this cca that taught me many things, that moulded me. It is just like a parent to me, nurturing me from a little kid to a mature teenager. Trying to stop me from doing NPCC related things is just like taking my parents away from me. Of coz i am heart-broken.
Should i still perservere on and do what i really wanted to do? Or should i be a good kid to them and listen to whatever they ask me to do?
