Mommy, brother and 2 sisters flew off this afternoon for holiday without me and father. Now this house only left with me and papa....

Papa works shift work. Yeap, so this house is now only left with me alone with only the kitchen, toilet and my room light on and total silence... It just feels so weird.... i guess i am too used to the usual lively house with all the 6 of us under one roof. To get rid of this funny feeling, i turned on my laptop and listen to songs from windows media player. =(

Hmm... time for some independence.... overcome lonliness, settle my own food, wash my father's and my clothes and even iron them. Cook my own dinner, make my own breakfast, make my own bed, set my own alarm to make sure i am not late for lessons etc.

9 days.... haha and this lonely feeling would be over.... i hope that they do bring some things back from the holiday for me.... =)) suddenly.... just miss them... haha even though haha its just one day....

9:31 PM; undramatically.Y

Continuous stressing for tests weeks after weeks for about a month drives me crazy and totally exhaust every single brain cells I have. Coming pathology tests seems to have so much content that it takes everyone forever to get it into our memory space of our brain.

Once again, I fell asleep unknowingly infront of my laptop while playing back what was recorded in the Centra Event. Mr Tham's voice seems like a lullaby that knocks me out within half an hour. I only woke up when my father made a fuss because I wasted electricity by leaving my laptop on when asleep. Oh no, i slept for like 2 hours and at this point in time just 2 days before the test i am still stuck at acute inflammation and not making any progress in my study.

There is just so much to study in pathology and this is just introductory pathology, there is a worse nightmare awaiting for me next year - ocular pathology. It is so messy, so many concepts, so many things to understand and remember. I know really look up to those doctors whose brain can squeeze it all these complicated concepts into their brain, because I really can't get it into my BRAIN!!! Haiz... let my pray and hope that I would do fine for the test... god bless....

11:08 PM; undramatically.Y

We always goes to BM mac to study together and at times, this girl appears in the mac too... He asked me if that girl look like xiao yu( the girl in the Jay Chou Movie called secret). Yea, she looks like her a little and was quite chio. He kept looking.

Trying to act like one with a big heart and hiding all the jealousy but just couldn't. That's why i ended up very sacarstic infront of him talking about "xiang lun" as well. Make him jealous back... muahaha!!!

We seemed drifting further and further away as we got busier and busier with our school work. Times we go out together lessened and so for our love as well.... :(

I shall not think too much into it and focus on my pathology test this coming fri ba....

10:00 PM; undramatically.Y

Temperament
Idealist
You are the quintessential dreamer - spending more time thinking about the possibilities that the world holds for you, rather than your reality. You don't settle for anything less than what you truly desire and you work very hard. You tend to live in every place except the present - you are prone to daydreaming about the future and re-thinking the choices you made in the past. Sometimes you get overly caught up in your thoughts.

Interests
Simple
You are continually pursuing a simpler and less complicated life - you don't allow yourself to fall victim to all of the "should do's" that society continually bombards you with. You are thoughtful about your life choices and think in terms of yourself, others and the world in which we live. You have a great sense that we are part of something much bigger and we must be good to others, if we want others and the world to be good to us.

Amusement
Thoughtful
You are easily stressed out and overwhelmed - you need to take care of yourself first and foremost. Because you tend to be self reflective, you know your limits quite well and must remember to not exceed those limits. When you overwhelm your life with obligations and responsibilities, you tend to shut down and go into yourself even further. Take some time to find your serenity and kick back your feet.

Passion
Emotional
For you passion is less about romance and sex - it's more about friendship and family. Strong emotional bonds and connections are your passion and your pleasure. You always let your loved ones know how much you love, respect and admire them. You do this through kind words, loving actions and simple gestures. You count your blessings each day and express your love openly. You expect the same from others.

12:52 AM; undramatically.Y

Woo... finally fell asleep @ about 5.30am today and woke up at 12.45pm and got outta my bed. As usual, I brush my teeth and wash my face and went for a shower... studied a little and then out i go to study outside at MacDonald's.



I saw Cherie, my primary school classmate in RGPS at Mac. Haha her looks nvr changed but grew taller of coz. She saw me with my visual optics book and lecture notes and busy practising drawing of graphs and practising calculations -- a stressful look. She somehow became a little envious maybe, being able to study in a polytechnic. She suddenly poured out to me that she retained in sec 3 before and now she is in Sec 4 NA, so while the bulk of us from the same class went to JC and Poly, she was still stuck in a secondary school and that she regretted for not studying hard. I kind of feel sad for her even though we are no longer as close as before losing contact for years. We exchanged phone numbers, maybe one day, when she needs my help, she'll call me. =)



So peeps, dun give up studies and regret one day for not working hard to study because once you chiong finish study life, our future would be better though we always choose not to believe this. We always find out parents a nag, nagging us to study hard to have a good future, our teachers for throwing us homework after homework, tests after tests, exams after exams.



Ok, that's it for today's post.... I'd better get back to work hard for coming Visual Optics Test...

10:02 PM; undramatically.Y

Just some photos taken as a class with Yih Chung, Ming Xia and Chris Ng during BBQ celebration for Jia Sheng and Jinn Yang's Birthday.

4:07 AM; undramatically.Y

Hush.... shh... my family is all sound asleep and yet i am still onlining at this time in time while studying for visual optics... oh my god, why ming xia's part is always calculations that i hated most.... I'm not a maths person, I just can't get the calculations right because I am always so careless in my mathematics...

Just changed my blogskin because I just got nothing better to do to stay away from studying for a while. Though i still think this skin does not suit me at all though it is quite nice because I am not into beauty and keeping myself looking chio always... haha just like in my GEMS.... I am a natural dresser... minimal make up and accessories. Sometimes i just go to sch in tee-shirt and shorts and slippers that my mum always was astonished by how i dressed to school... looks more like what i should wear to sleep rather than to school. Heez... coz wear so nice so uncomfortable... s'pore is so warm, shorts, slippers and t-shirt is the best choice to wear compared to the standard dressing for most poly students... a top, a cardigen with jeans or skirts and pumps or slippers? so hot liao still wear cardigen... -__-" haha if can I rather wear sleeveless or tank tops la... but i can't haha who ask me to have big fat arms... blame it on joining swimming in primary school lolz :(

Hmm, still think it is a little plain... so wanted to add in a song, i didn't know what music or song to add, so add this song first lolz.... haha coz dunno... just like the rhythm of the song, and this skin is about beauty, so i thought this song suits the skin's theme.

Hmm... gonna get back to work now.... study study study hard! Jia You CP! (haha just trying to get some self-motivation)

3:56 AM; undramatically.Y

I was so tired today then once I'm home at about 7+pm and i can't help myself but to take a nap and only woke up @ abt 12am. Oh my gosh, my nap was 5 hours.... more like a sleep than a nap.

I opened my dairy to see what's coming up for me so that I could plan my time and whoa! Alamak! Why I have just so much things coming up and my time was really gonna be full packed! Let me show you my timetable for coming week.

12th Nov (mon)--> School from 10am to 5pm (in dead beat after hrs of sch, go home sure end up sleeping)
13th Nov (tues) --> School from 8am to 11am (finally got time to chiong for friday's test)
14th nov (wed) --> School from 8am to 1pm (still got time to chiong friday's important test)
15th nov (thurs) --> School from 8am to 3pm (in dead beat already, wanna take a rest but can't! Hang on there! Chiong Test)
16th nov (fri) --> School from 8am to 3pm, got Physiological and Visual optics test from 10am to 11am, after that chiong to Unit, after training got area meeting @ 7.45pm abt NCOLTC. (Worst day of the whole week!
17th Nov (sat) --> NPCC BBQ + Chiong following week test
18th Nov (sun) --> it's weekends but can't go out coz got test! BRR~!!!

Haiz... life for my now is a test itself yet there are more test ahead for me....
Test dates:
16 Nov (friday)--> Physiological and Visual Optics
22 Nov (thursday)--> Ocular Physiology
23 Nov (friday)--> Introductory to Pathology (not confirmed coz DUN 1 on friday! it's my stress day and everyone's stress day... still bargaining with lecturer)=(

Haiz.... finally finish saying all my stressful things out... gonna get back to study now about Emmetropia, Ammetropia, Gullstrand's troublesome law, do calculations for optics and everything lolz... =(

1:43 AM; undramatically.Y