1:01 AM; undramatically.Y

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding. You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner. At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all

1:00 AM; undramatically.Y

Yea just finished packing by bag for tomorrow. Today slit lamp was alright though i kana Mr Tham. But as promised, Mr Ho is suppose to tell me today whether i need to retake subjective refraction component for clinical optometry practical exam... and the answer was 'YES' yea, kinda expected though he did gave me false hope telling me I was borderline. Sad with tears, i waited for merlyn and shirlyn and went off to jurong east for bubble tea to cheer up a little because dover's milktea sucks....

As we have so finish our drinks, so we decided to go walk around while having our drinks and shirl was hungry and so we sat down at Kobayashi and chit-chat while she was enjoying her meal. We're talking and looking foward to our karaoke session that we've decided to go together to de-stress ourselves.

We wanted to play arcade to de-stress for the day at first but due to $$$ constraints and plus we dun have arcade card we settled for neoprint session. Everythings was going on fine until ah~! I LOST MY WALLET.... anyway yea its over... heng i kept my other cards separately in a card holder i bought recently because that long long purse was super mafan though it has many slots for putting cards. That long purse cant fit into my pocket= inconvenience. So i bought that card holder and so all my popular card, ez link card, membership cards of many many shops and discount cards were all with me but in that wallet that i've lost was cash, a memory SD card, IC, 2 golden village movie money voucher and 1 shaw movie money voucher.

A happy outing ended up @ a police station making a report for lost of IC and wallet :( yea super suay, know today need re-take exam still lost my important IC. It would have bothered me so much if it is just cash and movie vouchers.... but the fact that i have the rest of my cards with me was a blessing.

Yea yea... a photo/pictures speaks a thousand words and so yea yea neoprint pictures below...

11:19 PM; undramatically.Y

5th is swimming... my fav....

And... ta da~! Yea the full complete set~!

1:10 PM; undramatically.Y

This is my exam schedule timetable with venue and seats... *Cross Fingers* Bless everyone and of cause myself.

10:27 PM; undramatically.Y

As usual, I wake up in the morning and go to school early as usual even though ophthalmic optics prac exam for my slot starts at 8.45am. Saw Merlyn, Jeffery and other DOPT-ers from other classes and revised for the prac exam.

8am was nearing and all left for lessons and Jeff go for prac exam leaving Merlyn and I. Near 8.30am we packed our stuff and make our way to ophthalmic optics prac venue. Everythings seems okay. I am kind of relaxed. Chris Ng stepped out and handed us the prac sheet to fill in while we wait for the first group to finish off their prac. When they're out, shirl cried. She must have screwed the exams i suppose. It's our turn to go in. PD measurement was okay for me. But I screwed up the other components. Lens Edging was the worst coz it's winner takes all. I got the wrote the wrong power on the paper for the Cyl power. So= all wrong. Stupid screwdriver was so damn fat that it could not fit into the minus sign of the screw.... waste so much of my time.... i got no choice but to seek guidance from Chris Ng. He told me that if he's able to take it out and he will minus my marks.... oh my... i am so damn scared.

Indeed~! He cannot take out and he told me there is 1 gd news and 1 bad news..... gd news is he can't take out... he wun minus my marks... bad news is coz it cant be unscrewed, so I have to force my cut lens in... ah.... and there was no time... so i just crack the lens in with ugly workmanship, my bevel was outside la~! Oh my tian..... Haiz... it was all over. It seems like not just me, but many others also screwed up the prac exam.

After that was Clinical Optometry Prac Exam. Janice, Esther, Me, Evan, Zhun Hong, Matthew went in together waiting for our turn. I was the first to be called in and in the end came out as the lecturers are going for lunch. So I waitied for 45 minutes till 12 noon then I start my prac and all the way till ret was fine. But when I test VA from Ret result... It was totally off la... his VA was 6/15. I threw away my ret results and tried to rectify and find his axis all over again but he cant even see the dots.... i need a 1D cross cyl.... but the max we have is 0.50D cross cyl. I stunned.... so I have no choice but to follow my ret axis. But the max i could get for 1 eye was 6/6 and another 6/7.5. Oh gosh.... No matter how i do, how i tried i can't get the other eye to 6/6 vision. Until there was no time, Mr Ho ask me to do binocular balancing and I go no other choice but do humphriss method due to unequal VA. After which Mr Ho told me I left 2 minutes and asked if there was anything I wanna do.... I was so panicky and I forgot to do +1.00 Fog to double check VA and I only remembered it after the exam. Due to his high astig, a difference in just 1-2 degree in axis makes a whole lot of difference in VA according to Mr Ho and high astig it is hard to correct until 6/4.5 line, 6/6 is good enough. His words made me feel a little better becoz at least 1 eye i managed to got 6/6. But made me feel damn bad becoz the other eye was not 6/6 but 6/7.5. I was not told my marks... so I asked him, he told me I am borderline... I was shocked and scared so I asked if i am borderline pass or borderline fail. He dun wanna tell me, he said he will tell me during my slit lamp exam.

Till now i still dunno how i faired for clinical optometry prac. The feeling of waiting for a verdict was terrible. You dunno whether it is a death sentence or just a jail term or fine. You dunno how serious ur punishment and verdict was. I couldn't help but worried and chiong out of the exam room with tears rolling in my eyes and finally flow down my cheeks and caught my classmate's attention and they came and comfort me.

I have no mood, seriously no more mood to carry on studying with pathology test. I am so affected by it. When I reached home I looked thru blackboard and saw all the red marks I've got for Clinical Opt theory tests and ocular pharmacology test. I couldn't hold back all my emotions and I just started crying terribly and non-stop till I eventually become so tired and eyes so sore and fell asleep.

Now that I've woken up, this whole chain of events still traumatises me and I dunno who to share it with. So I chose blog. Because I dun wanna let my parents know how much I am suffering right here. How much agony I felt, letting them have a false impression that I am a good daughter, good student right in their heart and not a useless daughter who can't even pass a simple practical exam or written test.

Well, I guess I've got to go and study for pathology test right now after pouring out so much things... I felt better now.

11:19 PM; undramatically.Y

I didn't study for this practical exam today. I know I'm doomed. Before that we're all doing last minute work revising what are the active ingredients in solutions etc. When it comes to my turn I could really feel butterflies in my stomach. 1-1 Oral Exam.

First question was what effect does tonicity have on lenses. Oh yea, I remembered I studied it before for his test on tuesday. My reply was Hypotonic, Lens would absorbs water and the lens will swell and Hypertonic, Lens loses water and lens would shrink. Oh yea, I think I am right.
He suddenly bombard me with a question not on my question paper. I was stunned.... Can tonicity agent be used as a cleaner? Ahhh~!!! I was so scared, I dunno what to answer so I said, no. He asked me then what is the function of a tonicity agent? At the moment, all I could remember it is to balance something in the lens... so I just said everything that could be balance, the charge, pH, tonicity. Oh Crap.... I'm dead....

Here comes the question 2 on the paper that most of my classmates couldn't get what the question means because it is just phrased in such weird way. Anyway, I gave damn foolish answer that multi-purpose solution should be changed as frequently as possible which I would suggest 2-3 days though the manufacturer say can store in unopen lens case for 30 days. He asked me why? I got stunned once again and crapped out a reason that is because there is microbes, the disinfectant kill all already then the effect no more... what broken english la... until I step out then I know to phrase it... that is the efficacy of the Multi-purpose solution in killing the microbes decreases with time.... so if it is kept for 30days, the first few days the efficacy already gone already..... I doubt Mr Konda comprehends what I said.

Following which is Part 2. Hand on session. I hope i did okay. I dun wanna go for re-exam for this module. Just let me clear it all at one go ba....

Lunched with HuiQi and FC4. Homed. Stressed up. Cried. Called kb up to talk but soon hang up because as usual, he dun wanna listen to my complains, my truants. I fell asleep till 2.30pm, see a doctor and got medicine. I opened my laptop and switched it on. Check my email and oh my god~! I was shocked by my GEMs teacher. I wanna really throw him into hot oil and fry him for real at that moment. I shall show my story in a complain letter I send to the module coordinator and u'll understand.

From: caiping1990@hotmail.com
To: anniesung@sp.edu.sg
Subject: GEMS Psychology and Counselling ST008S 8am Class Complaint

Date: Wed, 6 Aug 2008 17:10:56 +0800

To whom it may concern,

I am a student who took this GEMs on Monday morning 8am to 10am slot. I could not find who is the module coordinator for this module throughout the module documents on blackboard, but the notices regarding this module was posted by you. So I suppose you are the module coordinator for this GEMs.

The following attachments are screenshots taken to show as prove what time did the lecturer for my class sends email out to us and expects us to reply promptly.

On Week 16's Class, he announced to the whole class that week 17 there would not be GEMs class and we would only be required to come back for 1 last quiz on week 18. However, the test was held on week 17 instead and I actually missed the test because I didn't know an email was sent out to ichat account to inform us on the change of date.

The attachment "Email 1" shows that he sent an email to our SP ichat account on 30th July. It is 5 day's notice before our test. We can always conduct a survey how often SP students really go and check the ichat account. Obviously I am one of the majority who do not check ichat account frequently and I was shocked that I missed the test stated in "Email 2" attachment and of cause worried and scared I replied promptly as shown in the attachment "Email 3".

And pardon my language. WHAT THE HELL LA~! He replied the email this morning at 1.22am and he expects us to check our email like on today itself and know that the re-sitting of the test is today at 1.30pm at T1A57 (refer to attachment named "Email 4" for evidence). Please la~! Come on, I have lesson at 8am every morning, who the hell would wake up that early to check email before going to school or anytime before 1.30pm? How many hours notice is that?

Here comes a final email from him - "Email 5" attachment. He calls it the last chance and it so happened that I got to know this last chance and managed to contact the other 3 students in my course to contact him for the test. There are still another 3 students who I do not have their contacts and apparently I think do not know about the test. I have a question. Is it fair? Is it fair to penalise 20% of the module grades just because of mishandling of passing message to inform students by lecturers. Is it really our fault or what? It's something to think about. What about the other 3 students who still do not know they've missed the test? Are they going to get penalised?

Apparently, I have contacted Mr Loh Kwong Khuin to sit for the quiz. And he said that notice was posted. I guess it is the notice in attachement "BlackBoard1". But it is not under his name. So how would we know it is for our class to know or other classes where in the first place we do not know who is our module coordinator? Whether the one who posted that notice was our module coordinator?

I bet this complain letter is far too long and boring and I shall end this by just making my point here to inform you about this matter so that such unfairness to students could be handled properly not only to the few of us but next few classes over the years. We were also not told whether by skipping the actual test date would result in any penalty like cutting our marks by 50% like some modules in SP where e.g. the test is out of 100, if u took a re-test or re-sit for it, even if we got full marks we are only entitled max. of 50 marks. If that's the case then I think I am disappointed in choosing this GEMs because missing the actual test date was really not what we want.

Maybe you could give an answer whether we would get penalised for missing the test date in such a scenario.

Thank You.

From,
Ho Choy Peng
DOPT/2A/01

Email 1

Email 2

Email 3

Email 4

Email 5

5:33 PM; undramatically.Y

Oh my god I am crying right now, crushed by so much so much of worries and stress built up in me. Just received a message on msn from a schoolmate from DOPT 02 who took the same GEMS as me that we've missed the GEMs Quiz that constitutes 20% of the module marks. At that moment I was really so scared, I dun wanna my GEMs to pull me down any further having worked so hard to really push up my GPA though to no avail. I hope the teacher would quickly reply me to tell me that I have a chance to sit that quiz.

Mrs Tan posted the score on blackboard. The overall score for both theory test for Clinical Optometry I. I really did studied real hard for test 2 knowing that i failed the first test really terribly, badly, but I still failed by 1 mark..... 14/30%. Means I really need to work damn damn damn hard for practical Exams.

Tomorrow is yet another practical exam day for introduction to contact lenses but I already had no mood to study anymore, I was unable to concentrate and study for it. Besides, i also dunno what to study.

The day after tomorrow is the scary one.... Clinical Optometry I practical exam. I'm so scared. I can't hold back my worries and tears.... Suddenly so lost and scared I would repeat year 2. I know my calibre well..... my results were always full of D and D+ and D-. I could barely make it.

Talk to kb wanna die lol.... he's no longer there to listen to my problems because he has his own stress and problems as well. I had no one to talk to.... I'm alone to face all da shit... alone with stress and dreadful feelings and emotions... Sobs.....

9:54 PM; undramatically.Y