As usual, I wake up in the morning and go to school early as usual even though ophthalmic optics
prac exam for my slot starts at 8.45am. Saw
Merlyn, Jeffery and other
DOPT-
ers from other classes and revised for the
prac exam.
8am was nearing and all left for lessons and Jeff go for
prac exam leaving
Merlyn and I. Near 8.30am we packed our stuff and make our way to ophthalmic optics
prac venue.
Everythings seems okay. I am kind of relaxed. Chris
Ng stepped out and handed us the
prac sheet to fill in while we wait for the first group to finish off their
prac. When they're out,
shirl cried. She must have screwed the exams i suppose. It's our turn to go in. PD measurement was okay for me. But I screwed up the other components. Lens Edging was the worst
coz it's winner takes all. I got the wrote the wrong power on the paper for the
Cyl power. So= all wrong. Stupid screwdriver was so damn fat that it could not fit into the minus sign of the screw.... waste so much of my time.... i got no choice but to seek guidance from Chris
Ng. He told me that if he's able to take it out and he will minus my marks.... oh my... i am so damn scared.
Indeed~! He cannot take out and he told me there is 1
gd news and 1 bad news.....
gd news is he can't take out... he
wun minus my marks... bad news is
coz it cant be unscrewed, so I have to force my cut lens in... ah.... and there was no time... so i just crack the lens in with ugly workmanship, my bevel was outside la~! Oh my
tian.....
Haiz... it was all over. It seems like not just me, but many others also screwed up the
prac exam.
After that was Clinical Optometry
Prac Exam. Janice, Esther, Me, Evan,
Zhun Hong, Matthew went in together waiting for our turn. I was the first to be called in and in the end came out as the lecturers are going for lunch. So I
waitied for 45 minutes till 12 noon then I start my
prac and all the way till
ret was fine. But when I test VA from
Ret result... It was totally off la... his VA was 6/15. I threw away my
ret results and tried to rectify and find his axis all over again but he cant even see the dots.... i need a 1D cross
cyl.... but the max we have is 0.50D cross
cyl. I stunned.... so I have no choice but to follow my
ret axis. But the max i could get for 1 eye was 6/6 and another 6/7.5. Oh gosh.... No matter how i do, how i tried i can't get the other eye to 6/6 vision. Until there was no time, Mr Ho ask me to do binocular balancing and I go no other choice but do
humphriss method due to unequal VA. After which Mr Ho told me I left 2 minutes and asked if there was anything I wanna do.... I was so panicky and I forgot to do +1.00 Fog to double check VA and I only remembered it after the exam. Due to his high
astig, a difference in just 1-2 degree in axis makes a whole lot of difference in VA according to Mr Ho and high
astig it is hard to correct until 6/4.5 line, 6/6 is good enough. His words made me feel a little better
becoz at least 1 eye i managed to got 6/6. But made me feel damn bad
becoz the other eye was not 6/6 but 6/7.5. I was not told my marks... so I asked him, he told me I am borderline... I was shocked and scared so I asked if i am borderline pass or borderline fail. He dun wanna tell me, he said he will tell me during my slit lamp exam.
Till now i still dunno how i
faired for clinical optometry
prac. The feeling of waiting for a verdict was terrible. You dunno whether it is a death sentence or just a jail term or fine. You dunno how serious
ur punishment and verdict was. I couldn't help but worried and
chiong out of the exam room with tears rolling in my eyes and finally flow down my cheeks and caught my classmate's attention and they came and comfort me.
I have no mood, seriously no more mood to carry on studying with pathology test. I am so affected by it. When I reached home I looked
thru blackboard and saw all the red marks I've got for Clinical Opt theory tests and ocular pharmacology test. I couldn't hold back all my emotions and I just started crying terribly and non-stop till I eventually become so tired and eyes so sore and fell asleep.
Now that I've woken up, this whole chain of events still traumatises me and I dunno who to share it with. So I chose blog. Because I dun wanna let my parents know how much I am suffering right here. How much agony I felt, letting them have a false impression that I am a good daughter, good student right in their heart and not a useless daughter who can't even pass a simple practical exam or written test.
Well, I guess I've got to go and study for pathology test right now after pouring out so much things... I felt better now.
